Notes From The Past

My perception of who I am has been evolving through life. There are things I now see that have never changed. The importance of humanity, the need for acceptance and love is a basic human right. We cannot survive without it. I can't survive without it. Not just acceptance and love from others, more importantly from myself. I used to hate myself, no I didn't hate myself. I hated being helpless. I hated seeing others treated less than they should be, I hated feeling I am "unworthy". I was shown by a person who I felt was above me in every aspect that I saw myself, that I am not helpless. I infinitely hold the power to be me. Being honest with myself is accepting the things that make me who I am as something wonderful. Specially the things I used to see as faults, imperfections, and idiosyncrasies. Accepting every aspect of who I might be has helped me to move forward in life, after being taught to fear those things about myself. This fear lead to shame, frustration, guilt, and worthlessness. Shedding these old beliefs (truly lies) that kept me confined to a space less than a spec of sand, has helped me to deny self doubt, feel empowered, understand others in a way I didn't know possible. Seeing myself in others and wanting them to see their worth has become a gift. Looking back at the relationships I almost forgot I had, before the abuse that cultivated me for 18 years, found the very amazing people who also shared with me the innate ability to uplift and love in notes from the past. Here are a few I wish to preserve forever;